Happy Love Day to everyone!!!! I really like Valentines Day, not for the gifts or commercial part of the holiday but as a reminder of Love, what it is and how we should show our Love. It also made me think a lot about my precious Zachariah, and how much I am deeply in Love with him. Although I feel sad about not being able to show him how much I Love him, I know he knows how much I love him, looking down from Heaven. When you have a love one in the hospital or very sick it doesn't matter if you pull back and protect yourself or if you where your heart on your sleeve (like I tend to do) when that person is there or passes away the Love you have for them is the same either way, it will come out and you will still feel the loss and sadness of not being able to express that love. When you Love someone you can't really run from it or hide from it, it will always be there in the depths of your soul. I have a real great Peace about my son Zach, that he is safe and happy, he is being loved and showing love to the one who created us. We can only get a taste of what Zachariah is experiencing and that is only if we are open to God's love. I wonder what it will be like to never have heartache or pain and feel such a deep Love. I selfeshly want to hold my baby and kiss him and Love him. But, When I think about how wonderful the life he has now I feel better, I feel good inside knowing where he is now waiting for his friends and family to come and be overtaken by Jesus's Love.
I find my comfortableness and peace about Zach hard sometimes when talking with new people when they ask about my kids I want to go on and on about Zach as much as I do about Brock and Liv because I am so in Love with all 3 of them the same. But it is hard for some people to understand how I am so comfortable talking about him, they don't know what to say or feel uncomfortable. But I can't help it, when you Love someone so much you want to talk about them. The same is when you Love God, When you find that deep Love, true Love you can't help but talk about him and think about him. But Love is not true Love if you don't strive for the things in the verse below. I want to strive for true love for my family, friends and everyone around me. If there is no love nothing else matters.